*Warning* This contains some things that may burst your "I thought Catie was ...."

You should know some things about me(well maybe not, but I am sharing so you will probably read)... Some may be "oh I totally knew that!" and others may be slightly disappointing to find out about me. I tend to hide things fairly well... but really how am I ever going to fix them if I am never held accountable for them. So here are my top ten(some we can fix ... but probably not the first number 4- sorry yall):

1. I am horrible at blogging. I love to think that I could be really great at this one day... and I could. For those of you who are even left reading this... thanks for checking in! Could you find a fairy who could just write about my life?

2. This connects with the first. I want things to be perfect. Whoa... I know. Who would of thought? Catie B... she wants things to be perfect? So how does that connect with a cute little blog... I want to tell yall soooo many things, but I can seem to gather it all together into this what I like to think 'perfect little blog post' (when really I just need to do it!).

3. I think I am ADD. Seriously... my attention span is like 10 seconds. And within that 10 seconds I have probably thought about 5 differents things. Then I try to proceed to work on all of them at the same time. Which means this blog post has taken me over 40 minutes(correction** I am going on about 2 hours) to write.

4. This isn't one you can probably change... but just so you know. I really don't like chocolate and raspberry stuff together. (See this is what happens... thank you number 3)

EDIT* Number 4. People find me intimidating. Working on this one. Suggestions people? If you think that about me... you should meet my mom. We are both huge stinkin' teddy bears who only want to protect and care for those around us, but it definitely does not come off in a sweet teddy bear sorta way. Sorry yall, working on it.

5. I have a problem of being a really awesome starter... and a really poor finisher... IF I finish it at all. If I don't have a end date, goals, timelime... you better believe it probably won't get done. This greatly effects my hobbies and projects list... lots of half finished works. This is one thing I have been working on recently.

6. I am great at doing lots of things, but not the ones that really need to get done. Therefore, I leave what has to get done until to extreme last minute. I think I just heard a GASP! My mom is totally not surprise by this one. But seriously, I read somewhere that most of events If I spent even half the time thinking about and preparing for all possibilities then I wouldn't have to do things 3 or 4 times.

7. I really do work better on a team with a huge cheerleading squad cheering me on. Oh, don't we all. Sometimes it helps me to have 5 people working on the same project. It is great to have a group start and finish something. The reward to me seems that much greater!

8. I am a 'I want to do everything' type of person! You probably just thought. Duh, Catie, we knew that one! But what you don't know is that it means I don't do any one thing well. Yep, that's right. I said it- whoa!

9. Even though I tested as a J (for some of you who know the Myers Briggs Test), I think sometimes that I am on fat P. I make huge list of things to do, and either lose them... or take 50 years to get them done. There is a chapter in this book I am reading that I will probably write on later.

10. I am really quite emotional... really I am. Most people never see it. I can cry over a commercial or if I meet my old science teacher from 7th and 8th grade that I absolutely adored again(this is truth... it just happened in November)

Sometimes, or a lot of the times, Number 2, 3, 5, 6, 7, and 8 makes me the " I meant to ..." person which is so not cool. I had a yankee friend tell me once in all kindness of their heart, "I am sure like most things you do with good intentions, you really meant to do that..." Now you might think this was a little harsh, but it really was not. And I am kind of taking this to an extreme contexts. However, they were right actually, and I had just never thought of it that way(or didn't really want to admit it to myself). That pretty little wall of mine that looks all together was not working so well was it?

So whoever thought I was a focus, self-disciplined, wonder of a person which is probably not a lot of yall anyways! but still... sorry. But thankfully by the grace of my Father who loves me, I am striving to become better. How? I will write some more in another post.